Session was a total clusterfuck today. Julia was pissed. Anna was scared. River wanted to come out and say something important, but she was too frozen to push her way out. I was just confused and exhausted. The internal world was endless pain and screaming and fighting. Shadow Man is on his bullshit, terrorizing everyone. Time went over (way over) for the first time ever with this therapist.
We’ll probably burn her out soon enough. She seemed aggravated. And helpless. Struggling to find a way to help or connect. A replica of Zooey in similar moments.
This is what we inspire in people. Utter helplessness mixed with absolute frustration. Until they throw their hands up and leave. Honestly, I feel the same way. The only difference is that I can’t leave. I’m stuck in this hell.
I wonder when we will lose her…?