So done with today. Called the therapist around 11pm last night to leave a voicemail. She called back early this morning. Andi didn’t pick up, but she called her back and left a voicemail mentioning a good time to call again. She did call back.
Andi talked to her for about 15 minutes later this morning, then she called back this afternoon and I talked to her for about 35 minutes. They were mostly good conversations, I think. Crying. Yelling. Frustration. Confusion. (The usual). But she’s tough and not a whiny baby like Zooey, so that’s a refreshing change.
She also said I could call her back if I needed to check in again. I thought that was cool of her, but I will leave her alone. I can make it until Tuesday. Right?
Too effing tired to write about it more now. Maybe tomorrow. All of this switching and internal fuckery is exhausting.
-Julia
Things I Learned In Therapy 
I’m sorry today was so tough, but I’m glad you reached out and called the therapist. I think you are right. She sounds strong, and like she can handle the big emotions. I hope tomorrow is a better day. Xx
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She does sound strong. Today was little better, thanks. xo
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Glad you reached out for support, my dear. You are very worth it. Yes, you can handle life with all its ups and downs. But there are moments when we all want and need support from others, and that’s okay. Here’s to sleep!
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Thanks!
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Whether you make it till Tuesday or not is okay, either way. Talking to the therapist again would not be a negative reflection of you; if you need more support, it just means in that moment you needed support. It might be hard to trust that when she says it is okay to call again, it really is. But practicing trusting trustworthy people is part of what we have to do to heal, right? Take care.
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True. But also, easier said than done. You know? Thanks for commenting!
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WAY easier said than done. 😊 way.
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Hi Julia… I think reaching out is a good thing and I’m pleased both you and Andi had an opportunity to speak. This T really seems to be a good one. I wouldn’t worry if you need to speak to the T again before Tuesday, it doesn’t sound like she would be mind and it shows your willingness to reach out and hopefully build more trust. Hope you’re all able to relax today (Sun)
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Thanks Cat. I’m glad too. I just hope she’s not mad now. I haven’t called her again and I don’t think I will. Kinda scared to talk to her again at all.
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Being scared is natural, you’re only just starting to reveal yourself and the other parts and that must put you in a very vulnerable position. Everything is going so well, but try not to be too hard on yourselves 😉
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Thank you, sweet Cat.
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Hi J,
it sounds completely exhausting.
If you need to call the T again, it’s ok and if you don’t, that’s ok too.
I really dislike whiny people. Does she want some cheese with that? lol
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lol…that’s funny! yeah, it was so tiring and i feel so dumb now.
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Hope you can rest.
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Thanks!
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How are you doing today?
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A little better, thanks.
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Better is good. Are all your parts calmer?
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No but some are.
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Who is still upset?
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The ANPs, per usual.
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Your normal parts are more dominant and protective. So conflicts too. Do they work to solve them?
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Doesn’t seem like it, no.
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Do they talk together?
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Who? The ANPs? They may talk amongst themselves but I am not privy to that. I can’t feel one of them at all and the others are distant. I can only establish what is happening through communication with the parts that are closer. Does that make any sense?
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Yes the ANP’s and yes that does make sense. Andi one day, perhaps you will be able to talk with all of them, reason, work together, solve conflicts together. When they feel that, they may help work toward that goal as well.
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I hope so..
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hi J, I hate days where I feel totally stressed out. I know this is old, but I wanted to show my support. Sending you hugs. Your t sounds like ours! Xoxo Amy
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Hi Amy, nice to meet you. Thanks for commenting! -J
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