Today is so blah. My brain is mush. I feel tired in every cell of my body. My joints ache. My head aches. I can’t bear the thought of leaving the house or interacting with a single person. I didn’t even go to a meeting for a group project for class. I just could not do it.

I hate myself today. I hate everything. I just want to fade into nothing and stop existing. Not permanently…just for a while. I just need a break. From this feeling. From this heaviness. From remembering. From hurting. From wondering.

And from this freezing cold fucking weather.